Monthly Archives: April 2019

To mourn

The loss of a family member is one of the most difficult times in life to face and deal with. It is emotionally draining and it takes a lot of strength to move on in life. It is not easy to accept, but death is part of life. These last weeks have been tough. The feelings I am experiencing are new, and it is difficult to put words on them. I continue to do a lot of training since that helps me in this mourning process. This evening I did some swimming and that helps me to relax. Life continues somehow. I feel very sorry for my father since he is sad that he has lost his wife. They have been married so many years. We will make my mothers funeral a memorable moment.

My dear mother Elsa

This Friday morning my dear mother Elsa passed away. She became 81 years old and she has suffered from a memory disease during some time. However, she remembered my name til she died. Some people become aggressive and don’t remember anything, so I was lucky. It is stressful for my family right now, but somehow, we will continue our lives. My mother was strong and she always wanted to move on in life. She cared a lot and devoted her life to me and my brother. Of course, I think of when I grew up, and my strongest childhood memories are those in the kitchen. When we made cakes, dinners etc at various occasions.

I was lucky that I could say goodbye to her and she kissed my cheeks. That was a beautiful moment that I will keep throughout life. In the USA there is something called “waving”. I don’t feel comfortable with that, unfortunately, but that has to do with culture and traditions. What you are grown up with. I had to have some time of my own first, but now it is official. My dearest mother Elsa has left this life for another life.