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Eastern time. Yesterday was “skärtorsdagen”, today i “långfredagen”. Really don´t know the English translation. Eastern is very much connected to religion. However, in Sweden we are not that, so to say, religious. We have traditions but not to the extreme. Eastern is mostly a family gathering.

Often, weather is very good so it is the first opportunity to get some tan. To stay in the sun, enjoy what everybody has longed for. And refill D-vitamines storage. Eat eggs. Eat a lot of candy. Candy is really my weakness, I admit. Female trait. I have to work on that. But that is a way to enjoy life. I have my burdens, I know.

As you know I work as a pharmacist. I get time to write. Right now a lot of work but that will decrease. So this is how I am going to spend my Eastern. So boring. I have started to long for some traveling again. Meet new cultures.

Patent protection.

Lately, I have started to think what happened to my concept “functional nicotinic auto receptors”. I don´t think people understand the enormous impact this has on various neurological diseases. This is theoretical pharmacology, but I am sure this has a broad clinical implication. All diseases associated to dopamine. These are complicated neurological feed-back mechanisms that I could talk a lot about.

I have previously told you exactly how this idea became theoretical pharmacology. Professor Arvid Carlsson talked about nicotinic auto receptors at a little gathering at the department of pharmacology. I had just learnt how to make a dose-response. Classical pharmacology and I discovered a trend. I used an antagonist that gave surprising results. The aim was to find a dose with no effect per se (Larsson et al, 2002).

I think I need to explain that this is exactly how it works within research. You listen to a lecture, you read something and you can make connections and bring theories further. At least, that is how I used to work. Maybe there are other methods of working.

Within research you have to defend yourself and your theories and that is what I do right now.

Happy Eastern!

Anna

Hi! It has really been a busy day so I am rather tired. I should write but I save that for tomorrow and Eastern. I am happy because I see the end of the book.

This morning I went for training. It is really a lovely way to start a day. The weather was not so fine, but at least it was not raining. I always bring my cellular just in case I see something I would like to catch. I have problems with hackers. That makes me in a very bad mood. Last time I could´t take any photos at all. But today I found these sweet moments.

Here is a boat I pass every time. And flowers. What would life be without flowers? I just love flowers! Cant´t live without them.

I am tired and I am bored. I will change that.

Have a nice evening.

Anna

Will just write a little something tonight. I had a busy weekend and luckily I had a day off today. Working on my book and I am also working to get my body in good shape. I need some muscles. Actually, it has been a perfect day for writing. It has been raining all day. Feel a bit frustrated over my book, but I suppose I will get over that.

This is my first book so it takes time. And socially it is not so good because I spend a lot of time alone. But, this is what I would like to do right now while I wait for love.

All the best and with love.

Anna

Today is definitely no summer time. My parents are at church and I write. I am also preparing mentally for a run. I hear the rain and wind outside my window. There is an expression in Swedish “hundväder”. That is the perfect description of today. It is so bad weather that even the dogs do not want to spend time outside. So I feel like sweet Tippa and Lady today; just to have a lazy relaxing Sunday. I missed my family, that is why I am here. One day I will be alone. I don´t like that.

My urge for writing is varying more or less from day to day. I sometimes have problems with the internet. Today it works slowly. Patience. No internet freedom?

Very nice to be at my parents house. My mother has Alzheimer´s disease (a form of dementia) and that is a brain disease. For me it is sometimes horrible because it is not nice when your mother gets angry at you without a reason. Since I have knowledge about how Alzheimer´s disease can change moods I find that as a good explanation. But of course, that hurts my heart. Painful acceptance of biological cruelty.

I have a confession.  Again 😉 . I suffer. I have now lived like a nun for several years. I am waiting for a man. I have understood that when I show that I am not interested in a guy he makes up rumors so no other man will be interested in me. That is terrible. I have talked to friends who have had the same experience. Why is it like this?

Read the newspaper today. Interesting to read about what is going on in Uppsala. Since I write about Uppsala it is nice to remember.

Wish me good luck for my up coming jogging!

All the best.

Anna

Earth hour. One hour. Even thought it is soon April in Sweden it is still rather dark. Tonight there is time change. Summer time.

I honestly feel happy. Light.

There is something rare and unique about Nordic-Scandinavian climate. The contrast. The darkness contra brightness. Darkness in the north part of Sweden wintertime versus total light in summertime. Strange miracle.

Something typical Swedish is that you cannot show that you are happy. I easily get happy for something simple like good weather. Emeticons like 🙂 are ok. But not in real life. If you show happiness you are screwed. Twice, at least. I do not how this can be changed and I do not understand this. I always feel good if I something good happens and I honestly admit that I almost never feel jealous. If , I get a slight feeling I easily manage that. I really don´t know how. Maybe, I hide, push away that feeling because I don´t like it.  And I think of it a home instead. Jealousy is ugly.

How to manage feelings is really concerning life. Personal development. How to lead yourself (might sound strange) is a challenge. To choose right path in life. Left or right side driving?

Biology is not fair. The laws of biology are sometimes cruel like different incurable diseases. Biology is also very beautiful. I think I tried to catch the beauty of nature in the poem I wrote. A feeling I had.

To be honest I feel very embarrassed to write poems in public because they are so private. I write so nobody will understand but me. However, I have learnt myself not to be embarrassed. I try my very best. To leave comfort zones.

Tranströmer, a very famous poet passed away this week. I feel sad about that. But his poems are vivid and will always be. Poetry is so beautiful. Can make me shed a tear. Or two.

My very best to you.

Anna