SvenskaDifficult. Yes, it is difficult because it feels like I am the only one smiling. But, I try. I will go on with my smiling campaign. I will work on this whole December! Are you with me?
Anna
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Right now. Yes, right now. This very moment. Seize the moment. This very feeling. How does it feel? Are you happy? Are you sad?
Ok. I will try to answer the questions myself. To be honest; I feel somewhere in-between. Not happy, not sad. Soon I will be happy because I will go for work out. I need to go for training because I had ice-cream and kex choklad for dessert today. Body balance 
This week I have dedicated to smile. There are so few people smiling. Have you noticed? I have actively started to think of smiling, but it is so difficult when nobody is smiling. But I will carry on smiling. Happy face. Makes life easier.
I will smile, will you?
Anna
Sundays are very relaxing. I just do small things like paying bills, preparing for a new week etcetera. December has also come closer so I have started to arrange a few things to come into the right mood. Weather forecast has started to talk about snowy weather. Little cold in Stockholm.
Read the newspaper and listened to the news this morning. Catching up with what is happening. Had a cup of coffee with a toast. Diet.
Happy Sunday!
Anna
I talked about energy yesterday. How politeness can spread energy. I will start to think actively about being more polite. But, the challenge is when you have a bad day and that can happen to everybody. Being in constant balance is demanding.
I have a day off and I went for early training. There is something unique about walking in Stockholm, or any big city waking up. Feeling that a new day begins. Blue sky gives energy. Cold. No snow yet.
It is both good and bad to exercise in the morning. Went for Core and Bodypump. I got tired, so I have been very lazy. Just watching tv and reading newspapers. Simply, a relaxing Sathurday.
Anna
It is so cold now. Suddenly it has changed. The weather. In the middle of November. Two days off.
My reflection of this week is that things, the world, has changed. What I am talking about is politeness. Personally, my intention is to always be polite. Sometimes I just cannot depending on circumstances. I might be very tired. I might just have a bad day.
A happy smile. A few words like hi, how are you? Or just thank you. I am sure life would be so much easier for everybody. Politeness gives energy. Mutual energy. What has happened to the world? What about life in ten years?
Anna
Training again. Tonight. Internet is very slow but I could finally reach the website. This is the time of the year where you need some extra energy. To stay focused even thought it is dark and cold. So writing makes me feel good. And training.
I have always exercised. Since I was little and I am very happy about that. Exercise can do so much good. It helps you to lower blood pressure, lower cholesterol levels, lower glucose levels etcetera. And, maybe, most importantly, it hampers the (my) urge for candy. I really don´t understand why it is so good with something sweet after a meal.
Soon Friday. And some time off.
Anna
Lots of exercise tonight. Bodycombat and body pump. Dark and also rather chilly, almost like the weather in Göteborg with humid air. However, no salt in the air as you can feel in Göteborg. Tonight I thought of all years I wasted on a bad relationship. That is why I am single. I have learnt to be careful. Life experience.
Don´t have so much to say tonight. Just happy that I am in good shape. I am addicted to work out.
Cheers,
Anna
I don´t know what is going on, but my auntie (extra mum) has thought me how to watch out for dangerous people. People who want to do harm and noting else. She has worked for the UN and she has thought me some about how to be careful. With regard to circumstances (what has happened in France and migration) you have to watch out.
Sometimes I can feel sorry that I am not a man and gay. Life would have been easier. Being woman, and especially single, seem to be provocative in some way that I don´t understand. I am single because life has not been kind to me. It has taken years to recover from what happened at AstraZeneca. First to recover, then realize that I might not be able to have children and then accept the fact that people don´t understand that I need time to recover from bad peoples behavior. Stolen identity is exactly what has happened to me. I cannot move because that will not change anything. I have to continue with my life. Nobody can ever force me to get married and have children. Life experience has learnt me that people are mean. I hope I will find true love one day. Love is one of the great mysteries in life. I am trying to explain love in my book.
I just don´t like that people mind about my private life. Mind your own business and get your own life. Politically I am neutral. I just want people to be happy and I try to spread as much happiness as possible. I think I always have tried to spread happiness. However, sometimes I need to put my foot down.
I think I have contributed a lot with many ideas to improve the world. I have chosen not to be an active researcher, rather to have theoretical pharmacology ongoing. If you don´t have any ideas, no research. Moreover, I have chosen to be open with my ideas since I will not work practically with them. I will become an author instead; and that takes a lot of time! I would like to stress that this research program can only be judged if you have at least a PhD. Research is a world that cannot be explained with words. You have to be there to understand. So, I think that I am doing a good job, sharing my ideas. No patent claims. New drugs are needed in pharmacies.
Anna
It has been, I must admit, a strange day. My thoughts have been in Paris. I know Paris very well. I have walked there alone and also with people I know. It is such a beautiful town. With so much history and culture. People from all over the world. New buildings meeting old architecture. I remember that every French President wants to have a monument or something built. I think it was François Mitterrand who made the pyramid at Louvren. That is beautiful. New, meeting old ideas.
A long time ago I wrote that Sweden has been a country in peace for over 200 years. Swedish people don´t know how it is to loose people in war. I remember when I was in France that it was very important to honor soldiers that have lost their lives during war. Today I missed somewhere to put a flower. Maybe I should find the French embassy. I give a platonic flower. When really bad things happen, at least I feel I would like to do something.
I will try to write a poem in French. Not tonight but soon I hope.
Je vous embrasse,
Anna
