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Hi! Feel like starting to write again. It has been like an exam. Writing. So I have just needed to do different things than writing for a while, but now my urge is there again. I am writing dependent. Hope you are fine. Seasons are also changing. Autumn is approaching winter. This weekend time will fall back an hour.

Sweden is in chock today because of a terrible crime that was committed at a school. Today is different from when I went to school. Time has changed. There is much more violence. I should have some statistics to support my feeling, but I don´t. It is just a general reflection. You just have to be more careful. I don´t like that. That is a threat to freedom.

I don´t want to think about how many hours I have spent on my book. Instead of traveling. However, I think I am at that time point of my life right where it suited to have a break from traveling. Spend time with my parents, especially since my mother has Alzheimer´s disease. I wish I could have a dog where I live but it is not possible right now. So I meet my sweeties once in a while. We have always had dogs in our family so I cannot live without dogs.

We have always had hunting dogs, and I can tell you that I have spent hours searching for dogs in the woods. Since we have had many dogs I know that they vary a lot with regard to their hunting instinct. Some dogs never stop hunting whereas some dogs hunt for a fifteen minutes of so and then they stop. They want to go home so they are very different. When I grew up I went cross country skiing a lot and I always had a dog with me. We went fast. I liked that feeling.

Right now there is not so much to have photos of. Unfortunately. So, not photos tonight.

Lots of love,

Anna

Yes. That is true. It is autumn. I almost thought that it was going to get minus degrees today, but it started to rain instead. Ok, enough about weather. What is happening in my life? I feel a little empty to be honest. I will never be ready with writing of my book, but finally I have submitted. I had to let it go out of my hands.

I feel empty and I have put years of work and thoughts into it. At the end I have struggled with Swedish language. I found an old dictionary that I had and I used it a lot. Old words. Words that I have forgotten. But should I use them if they are not used today? However, I don´t like when words are forgotten. A language loses its diversity.

Right now reading magazines are fine. To follow the trends this autumn. Then, my project will be to read a book with good Swedish. And with a good story. I will read from a different perspective now. I am also thinking of sport. I miss running. It has been so beautiful out doors but I have to continue with an indoor activity. Still thinking about trying tennis.

Ok. Small thoughts about my daily life.

Anna

Dear diary. Today has been a very beautiful day. A little different from usual. Weather has been wonderful. Beautiful day, autumn day. I have worked on my book. I have thought about my background and the fact that I have been very discriminated in my own country where I am grown up. My way to handle this has been to not to think to much about it. I have focused on my own life and I have tried to work on what I want to do with my life.

Lappish people are considered as “zigenare” in Sweden. At least according to a medical doctor (MD) I have talked to. I have thought a lot about what this, so called, MD told me. It says a lot about herself. In France I learnt a word “pejorative”. That is exactly what described what this MD is talking about. She puts herself higher than other humans. This is not ok. At an intellectual level it is awkward how she considers herself.

I always treat people with respect, if I get respect. That is very sound and should be mutual. I don´t think lappish people in north part of Sweden know what Sweden is turning into. I don´t think they understand that 17th century still exists. Where lappish people are put into cold water until they do what the Swedish government tell them what to do. This is today. This is true. Human beings should be treated with equal rights. This is not Sweden today. Maybe it will not be. Maybe we just have to accept that this is todays society.

That is why I choose to spend time on my own. Because I am discriminated due to my lappish background. My next thing to do is to make “lappskojs”. That is something I often had for lunch at school in Enåker but I never liked it but I had it anyway.

Sweden is indeed in need of integration. Sweden and Lappland are still two very different countries.

I am still resting a little and soon maybe, I will pick up running again. Perhaps tomorrow. The evening is beautiful and I share here with you some photos from todays walk with my sweetest, sweetest darlings.

Anna

Hi there! I just needed some time to reflect before I could start write here again. I liked Hässelbyloppet a lot and I think I have some runners addict because I wanted to run today. However, I think it is better to recover. It is going to be beautiful weather tomorrow, so maybe I will profit from that. There is nothing better than running or other forms of exercise to clear your mind.

I reminded myself that it was a long time ago since I wrote a poem. I thought a little today and this is what came up:

Timeless

Running against time is a true challenge to life.

Nature is so fine,

sometimes I wish it could be mine.

Why is the unachievable the most desirable of all?

Questions of life.

This was a tribute to nature. When I run I somehow “breath” nature. I watch leaves changing colors, I see the water, people walking and talking, children playing etcetera. These last weeks have been so beautiful, the weather has been lovely. So that is why I like to run even though I feel some muscle pain.

To have the right diet is important. I feel bad having candy. I know I should´t. But I need candy when I write. That is my treat. I like my book a lot. And I hope my readers will like it. It really is a feel good and feel bad book. I think I have put at least four years of thinking into it. Today I remembered when I started to write. How difficult it was to find a way to write. I have developed a lot. I have also learnt to write both in English and Swedish at the same time. It was so difficult this summer. I don´t understand why.

Now I only have to read it again and make small changes, and then I am done. It feels good.

Have a pleasant evening!

Anna