Author Archives: Anna
Yes, I would like to write every day. Today is not a day when I would like to write. But, I should at least have something to say. Yes, I have. Today has been very focused on all refugees in south of Sweden. Human destiny. I would like to help but don´t know how. Feels like the problem should be helped at place. Easier to say than practise. How can you support?
Anna
This has never happened, that I write again the same evening. There are very few readers, and it feels a bit strange, to be honest, to write when I don´t know who reads this. However, this is my diary and I write what I feel and share my inner thoughts about life.
I thought about love tonight. I have always been very diplomatic in my life, but after life experience, I have learnt that hurts myself a lot. Being in a relationship for many years with no true love will not do any good for me. That is why I have stayed single for many years. Not a single date. Strange? Yes. I think so. But this is my life. And I will never let a man say what I should do. Never. Ever. That is for sure. “Bränt barn skyr elden” is a common Swedish expression illustrating what I mean.
I have to be very clear, because people don´t understand. Or rather, men don´t understand.
Wishing you a pleasant, and not so tough weekend!
Anna
Dark. Not that cold. Middle of November. Single. And I will stay single till I find love. I don´t understand why people cannot understand why I want to find love. True love that I never have had. I have met so many, more or less, sadistic people who are, per definition, mean. Human nature is difficult to understand. I will continue to fight for freedom. Like in Burma.
I don´t have any true friends anymore. A friend is someone you trust. Somebody you can rely on. This is what is important in life, and I have chosen to be careful; because friends can be mean. I know. Catfights. That is why I prefer dogs.
Yesterday was important. To the best of my knowledge, the 1 world war ended. A peace treat was signed 11th of November at 11 o´clock. History is interesting. When I studied at high school I remember that I believed in everything that was written. Later, after more studies, I have learnt that you must always read things with open eyes. What is true and what is false depends on how you interpret. It also depends on your own mood and other circumstances. Very interesting.
Tonight I spend time washing. Went to training early this morning. Always difficult at that time of the day but it makes your mind clear. Feels terrible that people want to stop me from writing.
Anna
I was actually not going to write tonight. I have been strongly committed and occupied by training. Work out. Since I am single, I focus on training. I have the right to chose my own marriage and way of living. So I stay single. Nobody can force me. I have been hurt so many times so I am very careful. Most men don´t know how to treat women.
As ususal I follow the news and Sweden is, since I have travelled I have some experience, very comparable to what is called e.g. “planekonomi” and everything included in that meaning. There is no room for new enterprises to enter Swedish trade. You are forced to be as everybody. Free word is not allowed. Free word and freedom of speech is strongly forbidden in Sweden. Cuban and North Corean style has slowly been introduced in Sweden. Or maybe Sweden is leading, showing Cuba and North Corea how to act. A good example. How many children every family should have. How to live etc. Otherwise you are executed.
These are very strong words, but they are needed. I work for freedom. Internet freedom is one way of showing freedom. Freedom should of course be regulated by law. Sometimes law does´t work. Especially with regard to discrimination. I have been very discriminated in my own country where I am grown up. Because I am lappish. Being Lappish is considered to be strange. Urinvånare. Lappskojs. Swedish expression. I will continue to work for free word in my own country. Sweden should learn from America. Tuff life but you can succeed if you would like to. Starting from scratch and building an enterprise etc.
I strongly support “free economics”. Even thought my own economy is strictly regulated, I believe that free economics is a sign of a healthy country. I will elaborate another time how I define “free economics”. It is very interesting. Maybe it can be something for my future writing. Maybe it is interesting because economics is strongly associated to people. Humans.
Enough of thoughts tonight.
Anna
Today I am very lazy. Just spending time reading news, preparing for upcoming week and simply, just relaxing. I follow most news sites for diversity. It is difficult to find good reading with good analysis. Today there was writing about meet in Texas. I often go with auntie for BBQ since she has family in Texas. I like that. BBQ.
I seek inspiration for exercising. To have the motivation going. So sometimes I read sport magazines. I have planned for this weeks training. Would like to reach next level. Need more muscles to get stronger. I feel good about having my writing aim set up. Three different projects. Always nice to look forward.
Wishing you a happy Sunday!
Anna