Weekend

I have visited my parents this weekend. Still a lot of snow but not enough for skiing. It is very fresh to stay in the countryside. Healthy. I went for a slow run today. I focus, maybe a little too much, on my body. But, I when I have reach my goal, I hope I can stay in that shape, and not exercise that much as I do now.

Ok. Will reveal that I need to loose visceral fat. The kind of fat you can so to say “hide”. This fat is the most dangerous fat that you can have. Not good for health at all. But once you (in this case that is me) have started to loose weight it is not easy to stop. It is fun to measure. To see that you can change. I still do not know what to do with my sweetie weakness. I can never have a life without chocolate. That is for sure. That is my pleasure.

I focus quite a lot on myself right now. But I think I deserve that. Finally, my mother is stable. Even though she has Alzheimer´s disease, she can live at home with my father. I feel I can let go of them for a while. My brother has a good life after his big accident so I feel a relief .

I can take care of myself for a while. I have been badly mistreated and really met evil. I know, for sure, that evil exists.

Sometimes I feel that this is expected. To take care of my parents and brother. I mean, I am single. Don´t have a family of my own. Then people think that I can take care of my parents and brother since I don´t have a life of my own. But I think I have right to have my own life.

I went for a skin care course a few days ago about REN. Got inspired and bought this. I spoiled myself. Skincare is important to feel good.

Have a nice evening.

Anna

 

 

Almost weekend

Life is getting easier. Soon April. Not so cold. Brighter days. I will just write a few words tonight. Thinking a lot of the beautiful and energizing run yesterday. I just had to stop for a some photos. To catch a few moments. Sweet moments of life.

Went for good exercise this evening. Maybe I am focusing to much on training but I like it a lot. Soon, when the weather allows, it will be nice to go for walks again.

Have a pleasant evening.

Anna

 

Opposite sex

Confession.

I am singel and have lived alone for several years. This is not fun. Not at all. However, life experience has thought me that this is the best of my choices. I hope I will find a nice man one day. Or rather the opposite. A man will find me. I have stopped searching. Somebody who cares about me. Men should go to school to learn how to treat a woman. It is so easy.

To be kind.

Kindness is not all. There has to be attraction. Like the laws of nuclear science. Electrons attract positrons that make love chemistry. Something you cannot put words on but might be explained by using mathematics. Complicated. An unsolved equation.

Love can never be forced. Probably only described in poems. That is beautiful. That is why I love Shakespeare. Have you watched the wonderful movie “Shakespeare in love”?

Yes. I have met men. And I don´t really know how to explain, but somehow they do not want me to be happy. To have a happy life. Even though it is over. Can you tell me why? To let go of me.

I feel good when I see people happy. People focusing on their own lives and not other lives.   The grass is always greener on the other side. Right or wrong?

Questions of life.

Love. Maybe the biggest question to understand in life. I am not sure I will ever have an answer. Most probably the answer will vary depending on time and environment. I´ll see if I can explain love in a poem. To catch the sentence. The spirit. The best way of explaining love.

Take care and have a nice day!

Anna

 

Stockholm

Rather late night. Stockholm was beautiful today. Such nice weather. I appreciate tiny pieces of life. Those are the best parts of life. Sometimes you just have to learn. Learn how to enjoy your daily life. Just because that is life. Not to think so much about future and to focus on right now. And not to forget that future is important. Just as history. Balance again. And again.

Ups and downs in life are also something to learn. How to handle “a not so good day”. Try to remember a good day. How it feels. And to keep that feeling.

I would like to write more. Writing has become a way of expressing myself. Long time since I wrote a poem. Soon again I hope. Time changes a lot. Or not?

All the best from Anna

Sunday morning

Yes. I am up early this morning. Wrote on my book last night, and I must admit that I got stuck because I need some more information. I just cannot makeup things. Unfortunately. I need to go an watch a court scene live.

I is chilly in Stockholm. Windy. You just feel to stay at home. Light some candles. Have some tea, and relax.

I listened to some music last night and I found a Bruce Springsteen CD. Depending on occasion, some music is more beautiful. Streets of Philadelphia is so beautiful. But also very sad. So I got a few tears. Don´t like to admit, but ok. Now I have.

Yesterday, I went for a walk to find some new clothes. I have lost some weight so my clothes do not fit. This is a luxury problem. But I suppose this a Western world dilemma. There are people trying to find food for the day, and I need new clothes because I lost weight. See what I mean?

I have written a lot on the internet. Almost like a book. To get new energy I sometimes watch this recording from Sergel Plaza. This was when Michel Jackson passed away. A tribute to him.

I just love to watch the spontaneous dance. Wish that could happen more often. People need to have more fun!

Anna

 

 

 

Friday evening

Another week’s work is over. Went to a skincare course yesterday about REN. That was close to Sergels torg in the centre of Stockholm.  So I am a little tired tonight, preparing for training tomorrow. I have a dangerous chocolate craving tonight so I keep telling myself that I will get rid of those calories tomorrow. To not feel bad about having chocolate. Compensation and body balance. Female load.

My very best memory from this week is my run. Refreshing. I think of that, makes me feel good.

Have a pleasant evening!

Anna

 

 

Hi again!

Wednesday evening. I am happy – I did my first outdoor training this morning. It was cold and very refreshing. A good start of a day in the middle of the week. To be honest, it was so cold so I had to start to run earlier than planned. It is always very nice just to walk for a while before I start to run. To have your mind set. Just to take a breath. Watch what is going on. Watch a town wake up. People busy going to work. People running just like me.

Since it was the first time in several months I had to be careful. Not push to much. Just enjoy. I did not bring my phone so no pictures :-(.

Next time.

When I run I follow my pulse status. Just to keep track of myself. It is very good for the heart to work for a while. To make it stronger.

Now, I am at home again. Working some on my book. I need to know more about how lawyers work. Told you previously that one of my favorite shows was “Law of Angels”. Difficult to write about something you don´t know much about. I would like to be close to truth as much as possible.

Yes, that is my day. Tomorrow work again and I will join a course in the evening. Looking forward to that!

Enjoy your evening,

Anna