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Dear diary. Today has been a very beautiful day. A little different from usual. Weather has been wonderful. Beautiful day, autumn day. I have worked on my book. I have thought about my background and the fact that I have been very discriminated in my own country where I am grown up. My way to handle this has been to not to think to much about it. I have focused on my own life and I have tried to work on what I want to do with my life.

Lappish people are considered as “zigenare” in Sweden. At least according to a medical doctor (MD) I have talked to. I have thought a lot about what this, so called, MD told me. It says a lot about herself. In France I learnt a word “pejorative”. That is exactly what described what this MD is talking about. She puts herself higher than other humans. This is not ok. At an intellectual level it is awkward how she considers herself.

I always treat people with respect, if I get respect. That is very sound and should be mutual. I don´t think lappish people in north part of Sweden know what Sweden is turning into. I don´t think they understand that 17th century still exists. Where lappish people are put into cold water until they do what the Swedish government tell them what to do. This is today. This is true. Human beings should be treated with equal rights. This is not Sweden today. Maybe it will not be. Maybe we just have to accept that this is todays society.

That is why I choose to spend time on my own. Because I am discriminated due to my lappish background. My next thing to do is to make “lappskojs”. That is something I often had for lunch at school in Enåker but I never liked it but I had it anyway.

Sweden is indeed in need of integration. Sweden and Lappland are still two very different countries.

I am still resting a little and soon maybe, I will pick up running again. Perhaps tomorrow. The evening is beautiful and I share here with you some photos from todays walk with my sweetest, sweetest darlings.

Anna

Hi there! I just needed some time to reflect before I could start write here again. I liked Hässelbyloppet a lot and I think I have some runners addict because I wanted to run today. However, I think it is better to recover. It is going to be beautiful weather tomorrow, so maybe I will profit from that. There is nothing better than running or other forms of exercise to clear your mind.

I reminded myself that it was a long time ago since I wrote a poem. I thought a little today and this is what came up:

Timeless

Running against time is a true challenge to life.

Nature is so fine,

sometimes I wish it could be mine.

Why is the unachievable the most desirable of all?

Questions of life.

This was a tribute to nature. When I run I somehow “breath” nature. I watch leaves changing colors, I see the water, people walking and talking, children playing etcetera. These last weeks have been so beautiful, the weather has been lovely. So that is why I like to run even though I feel some muscle pain.

To have the right diet is important. I feel bad having candy. I know I should´t. But I need candy when I write. That is my treat. I like my book a lot. And I hope my readers will like it. It really is a feel good and feel bad book. I think I have put at least four years of thinking into it. Today I remembered when I started to write. How difficult it was to find a way to write. I have developed a lot. I have also learnt to write both in English and Swedish at the same time. It was so difficult this summer. I don´t understand why.

Now I only have to read it again and make small changes, and then I am done. It feels good.

Have a pleasant evening!

Anna

I am found of classical music. I cannot deny that. Last night I went to such a beautiful concert at my adorable church. I had my eyes closed most of the time only concentrate on the music. It was perfect. A quartet (piano, cello and two violins). Beautiful music can make me shed a tear; and I did. I can sometimes get a little jealous of people working as professional musicians. When I grew up we had to play flute a year to learn how to read notes. Then we were allowed to learn how to play the piano. To be honest, I wasn´t that good to play the piano. I grew a lot when I got to high school. Where we had the teacher who learnt us so much about musicals. However, after her, I think she was my English teacher, we had another teacher who was totally dedicated to music. A lot of our teachers lived in Uppsala and traveled back and forth to Sala where I went to school.

This teacher from Uppsala learnt me how to make up my own music. That I don´t need notes, but can play by making up my own music. That made me grow a lot. Because then nobody could say that I play right or wrong. We have always had a piano at home so I have always played. But when I learnt to play by the ears with a grand piano that made me very eager to get a grand piano.

Every summer I worked at the cemetery. I sometimes went into church and played the piano to have a break. Very good acoustics. There was also a cembalo there, but the cembalo was only used every summer we finished school. I met a lot of people, and I don´t know, but they told me I have an interesting background. Something I didn´t understand. And still don´t because I am grown up where I am grown up. Of course, I had a lot of contacts with the priests living in the so called “priest house”. I helped them with everything during ceremonies. Somehow, they had heard about my interest in having a grand piano. They were about to move so they were interested in selling the grand piano to me. That was going to be my whole salary for my summer work. I thought, and I thought. I liked the idea a lot, but finally I decided to wait.

The priest house is very beautiful. And I like that there is a priest living there. Today, I  don´t know who is living there.

Yesterday I went for a delicious lunch. I had very good Röding with Mandelpotatis. It suits with my book I am writing. I am soon done with my editing. This has developed my Swedish a lot. I would like to have more words so that is the challenge. I use what I learnt when I was in France. A way of writing. The school in France was stricter compared to Sweden. Difficult to put words in right order, finding the right words, but somehow, that is  the beauty of languages. I must say that I love languages. Would like to learn more about where they derive from etcetera.

I woke up early this morning so I had a cup of the. I am still very fascinated by the stars. Mars is a little higher up in the sky. Still bright. But now there is a smaller star below Mars. I would like to know what star that is. Anyway, it is a fascinating constellation. Bright and beautiful, just outside my window. Good company!

So, now I will have a light, Swedish brunch (limpa med prickig korv, äggröra och sill). And of course, a cup of freshly made coffee! Weather today is just perfect.

Wish me good luck!

Anna

I wasn´t going to write anything tonight but I just have to let you know that I am so happy for tomorrow. Today I have been at rest. Recharged my batteries. I have prepared for tomorrow, will have brunch before I leave home. SMHI weather forecast has promised sun during the whole day tomorrow. I don´t know anyone who is going to run, but I am not worried because I usually always find friends.

Last time I ran this race was five years ago. I remember that the ambiance was very good. People were happy but it was very cold. So I have carefully selected what I am wearing tomorrow.

I think about my time and how to get 55 minutes. It is always good to aim at something. Maybe I should increase speed at 6 kilometers. However, I really am looking forward tomorrow. I have been lucky. No injuries. No pain. So I am excited!

Anna