Stockholm is in a way beautiful today even though the weather is so so. I suppose I have got used to the thought of this dark period ahead. But December gives hope. I like the candles and I have already started to think of decoration.

I am very keen on keeping my body in good shape. As you know I have run a lot this autumn and I did that for a change from ordinary training. Now, unfortunately, it is too dark to run. So I am back to traditional work out. Of course I have noticed a difference that I use other muscles when I run and other muscles when work out. Yesterday I kept my pulse high during more than two hours. Today I am focusing more on strength since I need more muscles.

My biggest challenge is to reduce candy. My treat in life. I am going to try to have fruit instead of candy. Small steps make big change. Exchanging a reward with another reward that is healthier.

Yes, as you understand I am focusing a lot on well being. Being in good shape means having a body and mind in harmony.

Have a nice evening!

Anna

Today I have a day off. Finding balance in life is important. I have been very lazy this morning; having breakfast, watching tv and some reading. It is very important to rest and to let the body recover. This is actually something that I had to learn. I like to do so many things and if I don´t have any activities ongoing I sometimes feel some restlessness.

However, today´s society is very much built on production and to achieve. The human part is quite often forgotten. My main project today is to find a beautiful flower to put on my table. Will also go for work out tonight. That makes me feel good.

I have had some problems with hackers on my computer. I don´t like that. Apple computers should be the safest I´ve heard.

Beginning of November in Stockholm means preparing for shopping in December. I like December a lot. It gives me a lot of inspiration and positive energy. Wonder if there will be snow this year? Would be nice to go skiing.

Have a nice day!

Anna

Hi! A new week with new possibilities. I am trying to write every day, but to be honest, some days I don´t have much to say. I miss catching moments in life by photos. Sweet moments in life. When I take photos there must be a feeling and that is difficult to catch. See if I find something today.

Yesterday I talked with auntie (my extra mother) and she told me that the terrible thing that happened in Trollhättan has been big news in the US. I told her that the police shut the man who killed the students. That is very unusual in Sweden. Sweden is becoming like the US where the gunmans are shut. Yes, you have to be careful in today´s society. Important to know how to protect yourself. But I really hope that the police will be more visible in society that will definitely decrease violence. Just by being there. Being visible to people.

It is amazing how weather can give impact. I woke up and the sky is blue. That gave inspiration to write. So, I really hope you will have a great Monday and beginning of the week.

Went to good work out yesterday. Muscle pain is decreasing. I have been running a lot but various exercise gives the best result. Change.

Anna

Wrote about Jantelagen yesterday. Something nobody want to talk about but everybody know what it is. I wonder why it is that way? Feel I cannot answer that question right now, but it would be interesting to know if it exists in other countries than Sweden.

Today is my focus on health. Taking care of my self day. Face treatment and exercise. Yes, that is on my agenda today.

Have a fun Sunday!

Anna

Yes. Maybe this is my therapy site. Writing. But I suppose all sort of blogging/writing is the same thing as therapy. It feels like my life has been stolen and I want my life back. I feel very sorry for that. But I try to make the best out of my life.

Sweden is a very, very good country to live in but I must admit, that I hate Jantelagen. I am a very happy person, but you are not allowed to be happy in Sweden because then everybody get jealous. I don´t understand that because everybody who lives in Sweden has a very good life if you compare to many other countries. I don´t know how that can be changed. Maybe I have to move abroad to get happy some day. Because you are not allowed to be happy in Sweden. I am happy because climate is good. No earthquakes. Everybody has food and water. You can find mountains, lakes and good entertainment. So, why complain?

Yesterday I wrote that I have totally forgotten that it is Halloween this weekend. So, today I bought a few somethings to remember as you can see on the photo above. Time has changed. When I was little everybody went to church and I remember that it was a little scary because of all dead people. The priest read the names of the people that had passed away during the year and lit candles.

Today is different. In a way, I like this happier celebration. Life should´t be to serious. But, maybe some combination because I think one should remember death. In life. Yes. Very complicated. I know. But that is what makes life beautiful. There is no right and there is no wrong.

Spending this weekend working a little. Writing. And exercising. Having a lot of candy means work out. Otherwise no candy. That is life. Weather you like it or not!

Ok. Happy me wishes you a happy halloween with many trick or treats!

Anna

Friday evening. I am staying at home tonight, relaxing and watching tv. I don´t know how many people read this, but I will continue to write in English. I trust my gut feeling more than statistics right now.

I have needed time to leave my book for a while. Since I have been out of ideas for a while that has made me think of where I get my ideas from. I know I need to do various things for being stimulated and motivated. So maybe, going to Paris or London would be nice. Or maybe something completely different for finding a new environment for my next book. Since I like my characters so much I will continue to write about them. Stories about life.

I have had some time to reflect these last two weeks. I have thought of my life. And of course I feel sad sometimes, but I have learnt how to deal with it. Life. How to cope with life. Meeting tragedies and how to find strength. The beauty of life. The school of life.

Halloween this weekend. I like pumpkins. However, I have forgotten completely to buy pumpkins and something to put on my door. Ok, all for tonight.

Bon weekend,

Anna

Today I have changed from running to ordinary exercise. Normally I am rather tired in the mornings, but I have tried to change that. Work out early in the morning gives a lot of energy. Since I am not used to this kind of exercise I actually have muscle pain right now. Not much, but a little. My biggest load in life, as usual, is candy. And coffee. But somehow, I feel I need to reward myself with something. I love sport. Cannot live without sport. That is a big reward.

I have had a break from writing. I wrote a lot when I was on vacation. This weekend I will start with a new writing project, I think. I liked my characters a lot. A lot. I will have to find, make up, a new story. I am surprised that I could make up a story out of nothing. Now I feel a bit empty of ideas so I really hope inspiration will find me again. No ideas no book

Anna