Today has been a beautiful day. This morning was extraordinary. Calm, water had a very soft look. Tempting to have a bath. People running. Walking. Birds. A city waking up for a new day. Walk is very good. Maybe one of the best kinds of exercise you can have. I thought a lot about Brexit this morning. That can be interpreted in many ways. I am trying to get some help to connect my instagram photos with this site. So, please hold on.

I am prepared for a lot of walking in London. Hope I will find something. But, most of all I will just get a feeling for London. There are so many monuments etc that are so beautiful. I like the sense of history. England has a lot of history. I don’t know why, but the battle of Hastings is something I remember from school.

Ok, I just wanted to write a little something to share from this morning. These kinds of mornings are rare and I will keep it as a memory.

To be honest I had to think a lot about what I wrote last time. A lot of thoughts. Good thoughts that need to be elaborated on. I don´t know why I wrote it, but it cleared my mind.

Stockholm weather is very nice. Warm even though it is evening. Almost a little tropical. I am trying to find out what weather will be like in London. So far, so good. But that may change. I am soon going to make the last cellular test so this journey will make me clear my thoughts. Breath. Catch my breath.

I have started to have a cup of tea every evening. That feels good. Relaxing. Hope I will find a good place where I can have delicious Afternoon tea.

Sometimes I write and sometimes I am not in the mood of writing. Today I have though about human actions and reactions. Why one may react with fear, joy and/or other emotions.

I am looking forward to my stay in London. I was about thirty years old when I was there for the very first time. I was quite old, since Sweden is rather close to Great Britan. Alone, visiting a friend I made in Gothenburg during studies. I remember I was very impressed, and I liked London even though it was a big town. As you remember, I am grown up in the countryside. People from all over the world. I like that.

Since I have always been interested in different cultures, languages etc, I follow what happens in various countries by reading. I wrote some on Facebook on nicotinic auto receptors and I would like to reconnect to what I wrote there. That was when David Cameron was Prime minister. Now Theresa May is leading. I wrote some about Norway not being part of the European Union.

In the beginning of June this year everybody talked about Brexit. Finally, Brexit was voted for and that is very interesting. Democracy ruled. Peoples vote. A lot of feelings emerged. How can we continue to study abroad, will we be an isolated island? Many questions, feelings occurred as a reaction to Brexit. What is interesting to note is that a lot has changed since the end of world war II, when the EES/EU peace process was started. It is also interesting to note that terrible things have happened, again, in ex-Yugoslavia in the early 1990’s. Something that is not mentioned today. Similar to what happened during world war II.

So, life can change, rather rapidly, only over some decades. I believe that there are emotions that need to be handled, and that takes time. Years. Decades. Generations. These emotions are, according to me, inherited over generations, but the amplitude may hamper.

Today, the peace process in Europe may be at at different level where e.g. Turkey is a challenge. A lot of work has been put down to reach EES/Schengen agreements. Students can study abroad even though not being a EU member. I believe this is a step in right direction because it leads to more human independence. Here, is what I mentioned in the beginning. Human feelings. What happens if we are not part of the Union? This is very close to human nature. An instinctive reaction. Maybe group behaviour.

I believe, and hope, that the world is more moving towards being within the concept “world citizen”. No unions because that makes enclosures. More human independence and responsibility. The government do not have to make a decision for you. You can make your own decisions but within the borders of laws.

Just some reflections tonight. Thinking about London and looking forward to my stay there. Escape for some time.

Today has just been an ordinary day in my life. I am thinking about my life and the fact that I have lived single for so many years. However, I believe it is every woman’s right to decide what she want´s to do with her life. In my case, I haven´t had much choice. I have a huge life experience that I would like to keep for myself. That is my private sphere. Sometimes I share a part, and some I keep for my self.

I have also been subjected to cruel, sadistic torture. That is true. I believe it is so called “cold diplomacy”. However, I have this website and I fight for internet freedom. I could never believe that this would ever happen to me.

I really how I will find a soul mate some day. I will wait. Wish me good luck.

To laugh makes your life happier. I like to laugh. That prolongs your life I’ve heard. I haven’t searched but I imagine there are a lot of studies supporting that it is good to laugh. Release of endogenous endorphines etc.

In Sweden it is not really appropriate to laugh, so to be honest, I laugh quite a lot when I am at home. Reading makes me laugh. And that makes me feel good. It is very rare, but sometimes I am almost unstoppable.

I suppose my laugh is a way of dealing with life. Life can be very difficult sometimes. My way of dealing with the fact that I had cell changes. I am soon going to make the final test. To this end, I gave a symbolic amount of money to cancer fund/research and that made me feel good.

I have started to travel again. I am soon going to London and that makes me feel good. I have been bad at treating myself good. So, that makes me smile. A lot.

Il est maintenant le week-end. C’est bon. La semaine a été bonne parce que j’ai beaucoup pensé à mon séjour a Paris, en France. Maintenant, je suive plus activement les nouvelles dans Le Figaro. Le Dimanche dernier était très agréable. Il faisait très chaud et je me suis promeneé. J’ai passée la belle architecture, y compris cette belle Plaza dans la photo au-dessus. J’ai bu du café fort et parce qu’il faisait très chaud, j’ai fait une excursion sur la Seine. Rafraîchissant. Je suis restée dans le Quartier Latin. Je voulais sentir l’histoire des auteurs tels que Le Clezio, Sartre, Camus, Beauvoir… De plus, j’ai fait une visite à Notre-Dame. Il y a quelque chose de spécial d’être là. Elle est si vieille. Beaucoup d’histoire.

Ce week-end, je me suis occupée à la maison. J’ai fait le ménage et par hasard j’ai trouvée ce poème que j’ai écrit il y a un certain temps. Il pourrait être une bonne transition parce que je vais continuer à écrire en Anglais. Je m’entraine beaucoup; ca fait un grand part de ma vie. Je vous souhaite un bon Dimanche.

Timeless

Running against time is a life challenge.

The world is so fine, and, sometimes,

I wish it could be mine